I’m beating myself up over this but at the same time it felt kind of good and that makes me a terrible person, right?
Today as I walked into a shop I was greeted by a woman who was waaaaay too perky. She basically pounced on me and said, “Hi! How are you today?”
I don’t know why I had to be so rude, normally I am pretty great at pretending to be a polite sort of person but not today. I answered in the most sarcastic voice I have, “GREAT”, with a deadpan expression on my face. I kept walking as I said it so she could clearly see that I was a miserable human being.
I did a circle of the shop and slipped out quickly without buying anything. I felt so embarrassed by my behaviour. As I walked around some other shops I started to feel a bit empowered. I thought that maybe this is how I will interact with people now. Why should I pretend to be actually great or fine or okay?
Such miserable thoughts!