I’m becoming quite familiar with the sleep/relaxation/hypnosis side of YouTube because I’ve stopped taking one of my medications and I am finding it really hard to get to sleep.
Guided relaxations have been pissing me off because I am able to predict what they’re going to say most of the time, “The back of the foot, the front of the foot, the WHOLE foot relaxed…” I found a great hypnosis video the other night and I think it actually worked pretty well because I don’t remember being awake for very long after listening to it. I can’t listen to the same video again though or I will have the same problem as the guided relaxations so I’ve been trawling through all sorts of other videos trying to get the same effect.
One video was far too indecisive. I started getting really pissed off at the voice which said things like, “You might want to imagine a shape or you might wish to think of something else.” Make up your mind! Tell me exactly what I should think of! I didn’t want any options. When things are left up in the air like that my mind isn’t creative enough to come up with it’s own symbols or whatever. Instead I start thinking about things in my life which are fucked up or how tired I will be if I can’t ever get to sleep. The video made me think of every day tasks and told me to remember them as dreams. That really isn’t a good suggestion for someone who has troubles with reality.
Eventually indecisive lady helped me or else I was simply bored and tired enough to get some sleep but then I was awake again an hour or so after that and again and again…