I’ve adopted the old lady as a grandma while in here. I’ve made friends with a middle aged man who is so kind and easy to talk to. He’s like an uncle. There’s a girl a bit older than me who is really kind and likes the same things I do and another a bit younger who really understands my mind and how I think. everyone here is pretty cool but that guy who I mentioned in my last blog, he’s creeping me out so much. I told my doctor about him and he’s aware of what’s going on. I guess the staff see everything on the cameras. Actually, he’s not just freaking me out, he’s freaking out most of the women. I look much younger than my age and I think thats why he is attached to me but I heard from my sort of uncle in here that he’s also been trying to get close to the actual teenage girls. They’ve had a meeting about him and he’s been told to leave everyone alone but because he isn’t considered dangerous, he’s allowed to stay.
its doing my head in. Every time I creep out of my room he’s sitting in his room with the door open and he follows me. When I get my medication he comes up and stands near me. i just left my room to go out for a cigarette and I saw him in his room. I felt really strange about leaving my room in case he got in there but I went out because I don’t want the staff to think I am acting weird. I lit my cigarette and then freaked out. I couldn’t find the keys to my cupboard and I was so scared that creepy guy would get in there. I gave my cigarette to my sort of uncle and ran inside. I grabbed my keys and had a look around to see if anything was out of place. I went back outside and creepy guy ran up right behind me. As I walked I could feel him so close and I hurried over to the smoking area. My sort of uncle is protective and told me to sit next to him so creepy dude couldn’t get close to me. I finished my cigarette and came back into my room. Because I am stupid and this is an iPad, I will mention now that when I went back in, I saw creepy guy tuck something into his pocket quickly. I have been searching my room to make sure he hasn’t taken anything but what if he has? I am so scared but I can’t just go accusing people of stuff when I have no proof.
I’m so worried that he will come into my room when I am sleeping. He really gives me the chills. I hate how he says thing like, hi beautiful or you look pretty today. Any other patient can say something like that and I know they are just being nice but when he says it, it’s really sinister. His smile is so creepy. His whole demeanour is creepy. I sort of hope he breaks a rule or something and gets sent somewhere else. Ugh, i really have to check my cupboard again to make sure nothing is missing. I can feel him just hovering out there, sitting in his room and staring at my door.
My sort of uncle leaves on Thursday and I am so scared about not having him around to protect me. 😦