Is that you, Pumba?

Saturday night in a mental hospital and I am watching The Lion King on television. I swear to god Pumba’s voice has changed since I last saw this movie as a kid. A lot of things seem different these days. I am getting peculiar impulses to state my thoughts out loud to no one. It […]

Checked In

I arrived here yesterday in a state of derealisation. I met my doctor last night and he has an interesting theory about what might be wrong with me but we’ll wait and see as he gets to know me better. This morning I stopped one of my doses of one of my meds and that’s […]

There’s nothing like that first cigarette of the day

Until you realise that your stupid, tired and stressed out self doesn’t know how to function properly and you end up holding that cigarette a bit too close to your hair. That smell, ugh! I didn’t even notice what had happened until I went to put my cigarette out in the ashtray and it had […]

Visitors

Firstly there are those whom you have to politely ignore, no matter how kind their words are. You don’t want them to see you at your worst; you have some sort of image to uphold. They’ll probably try to show up anyway. Then there are those whom you will probably have to restrain yourself from […]

Why I Don’t Give A Rat’s Ass About Valentine’s Day

I’m usually single on this day and I don’t care. I’ve either broken up with people just before to avoid the whole V-Day hype or I choose sucky relationships which don’t last long. If I am dating someone, I don’t want to expect romance on a particular day. I want it given to me at […]

Hospital or No!spital?

Sometime in the next couple of weeks I’ll be back in hospital. I don’t want to go but something needs to be done. I’m too stunted. I am not progressing in life. Everything is becoming too hard and I’m losing hope. “What if I just stay here and never do anything or go anywhere?”, I […]