I take three different medications in the evening and I keep them in a pill organiser with my day medications. At seven o’clock I take one pill but I make sure I take the other two out of their slot and place them on top of the organiser so I don’t forget to take them an hour later. I’m used to this system and it usually doesn’t fail me but lately I’ve been having nights where I freak out in bed and convince myself that I have forgotten the eight o’clock pills.
It’s happening far too often and I don’t want it to become a habit or a routine. I lie there for a moment and try to remember swallowing the pills but I can’t, so I angrily get out of bed in the dark, pull my t-shirt down because I am too lazy to search for pyjama pants and tip-toe out to the kitchen in search of my pill organiser.
I have never forgotten to take the later meds before actually going to bed so I don’t know why I am so worried about it. I think deep down I know that I have taken them but I need to confirm it because I don’t know what might happen if I don’t.
Anxiety from the moment I wake until the moment I sleep. Ugh.