I started on the double dose of one of my antidepressants last night. At first nothing seemed that different, I was drowsy but I usually am in the evenings. I slept alright, had a dream some nice guy made me breakfast- rice, meat and diet coke. It was a strange combination but I actually ate it without any anxiety. When I woke up today I felt like utter crap.
I am really shaky and agitated. My anxiety is really bad. I have quite a fast heart-rate, my stomach hurts and I feel sick. The only positive is that I have no appetite, maybe I am full from the dream food. I really hate this. I don’t know if I should persevere or just go back to the lower dose. I am not seeing my doctor for almost two weeks.
I’m scared to do anything today but I am too anxious to rest. I told my mental health team I would call if I noticed I feel terrible (generally and with the med adjustment) but I don’t want to talk to anyone and there isn’t much they can do except offer a sympathetic ear and suggest things like hospitalisation (no, never again).
I think these meds are poisoning me.