I think I am caught in a loop of emotions and I am beginning to wonder if sometimes I feel the way I do because along the way I have dropped stones and as I follow the same path back and forth, I keep coming across memories.
How can I determine if I genuinely feel low or if I feel low because of a pattern? It’s like when you associate people with songs, there’s always going to be a link there. Do my feelings of despair come from another year passing and not much changing or do they come from the memory of sad/hopeless moments?
I’m too connected to my past and I obviously need to go down a different path but I am afraid of the unfamiliar.
Maybe it’s the time of year, maybe it’s something in the air or maybe it’s all coincidental. Maybe my brain is just wired to feel down and I’m reading too much into all of this.